I know I've left some unfinished stories on my Youtube channel, with the most notable being this one. I don't regret that I stopped playing DK Summit; I only regret that I tried to go on with the story when I knew I didn't want to. You see, I never intended to write some endless story, and it wasn't my expectation that I could set a record that would just never be beaten. Yes, there was supposed to be an end to the story, no matter how good or bad that ending might be.
It started out with getting the world record the first time. Back then, that was something that seemed almost impossible. To set a world record in a well contested game with a worldwide leaderboard, now that was something to write a story about. And then eventually I did get it, and it was like, "Wow, I actually got the world record!!" And then of course someone else beat it. But then I got it back, and not only was it that I got the world record once, but I also defended it. And then some time later the strategy on the course changed significantly. Then once again, getting the world record looked like something that was really hard to do. Some of what I had previously learned was now useless, and if I wanted to even be able to compete for the record again, I would have had to learn something new. And then, despite all that, I got the record again, and reclaimed it a couple times after it was beaten again. After that, it was less of an amazing feat to reclaim the world record and more of something I believed to be possible. Certainly not easy, but just not as meaningful as it once was. I didn't feel like I had anything left to prove. I was able to set the world record once, get it back after losing it, get it back after the course strategy changed, and get it back again after losing it again. I fully believed, and I suppose that today I still do, that if I really wanted to get the world record again, I could do it. It might take some ridiculous effort, long struggles, and a lot of failed attempts, but hey, I went through that before. The only problem is that it's not my goal to set a world record in Mario Kart anymore. I'd rather do something different, learn something new, find some area where I have much more potential to improve. In that way, the story continues on, just not in Mario Kart. Say what you want: that I ran away or that I gave it up. Maybe I did, but right now I'm fine with that, and because of that, I may never come back.
As for Street Fighter IV, I did get a lot better at it. I guess I found out though that, while I had the motivation to play the game, I didn't have the motivation to make videos about it. Eventually I moved on to other fighting games anyway, and I got a lot better at fighting games in general.
Oh, and I was going to do a series on Starcraft II, but it's probably good that I didn't.
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